I know I havent posted in a looong time...sorry.
First of all, there haven't been any new neurocam updates...
So, whats new? Well, let me try to summarize the last week.
Courtney, if you do not want to hear about prom or anything like that, skip this part.Last weekend was prom. It was gay. It was boring. It sucked ass watching my date dance with other people, including one of my friends who I later discovered she also likes. Strangely, it didnt even feel that confortable dancing with Brittany. Furthermore, it also was balls thinking and wishing the entire time that I was there with Courtney. (more on that later, I suppose). In fact, the only time that didn't blow enormous amounts of ass was going back to
Cyanide's after and drinking a bunch. Actually, wait even that was gay, cause the whole time, for some unknown reason, Brittany was practially flirting with
Cyanide.
While I dont remember much of the week that followed, I do remember sever key points. Brittany=pissing me off. She seems to be acting differently now that she did before prom and even before that. She seems more, im not sure, distant i guess. Not only that, but it seems like shes always pissed of about something and she takes it out on me. She has done this for a while and now its really starting to get to me.
Friday, went to St. Sebastian Carnival for like a half an hour with
Cyanide and his gf. I also hung out with them last night, and i am actually over at his house now. She is there as well. The only bad thing is, that being around them kills me. They are both good friends of mine and i am glad they are together, i even enjoy hanging out with them, but its so depressing. It just goes to further remind me that i might as well be alone and that i should just get used to it cause this is the way its always going to be. That, and it just makes me miss Courtney all the more. Why? Because of the way they are together. How close they are. I had that once...till it was taken from me...by my parent. (long story, for another time) And seeing them together makes me really miss what her and i had.
Well, i best be off, ive got a lot of doing nothing and mopeing (sp) to attend to. So, adios, i guess.